Peace & Pain

Sorry for disappearing there for a few days!  Posts may be a smidge sporadic this week, we'll see.

Head pain has been really bad.

I had a great two week run with next to nothing but the last 5 days have been really rough.

 

 

So time in the studios is being spent as well as it can possibly be spent!

The rest of the time I've mostly been snuggling it up with the buns...

cause for me, when I am dealing with this much pain, not much else is more soothing.

Colour and Pain: A Realization

I've been sitting her most days of the last 2 weeks

with a pounding head, an aching wrist and a throbbing knee.

I am feeling a bit like how Flynn looks in this photo, ha ha!

(that being said, isn't this such a cool photo of him, I think I'll have to do a pastel of this one soon!)

 

I've been thinking about how many people out there are SO lucky that they don't get migraines.

I've been thinking how I am lucky because I could be much worse off...

I could have more troubles...bigger troubles...

even though these migraines feel pretty big to deal with a lot of the time!!!

 

I've also just begun to realize the correlation between my art & the pain I deal with...

suddenly it's seeming very clear.

...

I love colour, period.

I've been told many times to calm down my palette!

but I know I could never do that because

my spirit just thrives and flourishes with colour.

colour is just part of my heart and soul...part of what makes me happy.

Colour is simply a part of what makes me me.

 

 

BUT, I am also realizing that my use of super bright colour in my work

is also a way for me, body & soul, to cope with all this pain that I have.

(and also is a way to leap over & look ahead from all of the bad happening in the world).

 

I woke up this AM with a very sore head, a screaming wrist and such a sore knee that I wanted to cry!

but after those first few moments of waking and taking inventory of how my body was feeling

I had the strongest urge & need to get to my desk...

so I could sit and bask and relax within all my colours.

 

A knee that dislocates at the drop of a hat and which throbs every single day...

the really shitty and horrible chronic & acute migraines and headaches...

the repetitive stress disorder and insistent pain of my working wrist...

the shortened muscle in my shoulder that leads to a sensation of being stabbed over & over again...

the wrong curvature of my upper spine that leads to discomfort...

the giddy up in my hip...

the arthritis in my neck...

It all leads me to colour like a horse to water.

 

Colour...bright and pure and joyful...unbridled...uplifting...vibrant...transporting!

I just NEED it.

I rely on it, body & soul, because of the drudgery of all this pain...

and well, I just LOVE that despite the negative,

I have this amazing escape that no one can take away.

Colour saves me, it pulls me out of the negativity!

Even if sometimes the pain keeps me away from it for long periods...

when I get back to it the comfort is not one iota less.

Colour...

it's always there patiently waiting for me,

ready to engulf & lift me...waiting to soothe and embrace

and I love love love that.

 

XO

I'll Be Back On The 20th

Migraines & bad headaches have been seriously kicking my ass these last couple of weeks.

I've been trying to be stubborn & work through the pain but one night got so bad I almost called 911.

And now, I also have some tummy bug to contend with SOOO....

 

 

I am going to take a teeny tiny break from the blog to regroup my wits, patience, stamina

and all that good stuff that one needs in huge amounts to run a small indie business!

I'll be back...hmmm...let's say on October 20th.  See you again than.  XO

Ugh & A Promise

Ugh!
So sorry to disappear on you this past week.
This is the first time all week that I've been able to sit down at my computer!
Once again any forward momentum came to a stop...and you know I hate it when that happens!

Jinny was doing rather poorly again & needed to begin meds again...
BUT she's doing better again.

Flynn wasn't feeling well with an bad ICS flare up...
BUT he's doing better today also.

And I had a pounding head for almost a week straight & though the throbbing wasn't horrible,
it was just sore in the wrong spot, so I found myself completely useless & unable to concentrate
& just ended up resting and snuggling bunnies!
Sometimes this head pain just completely wears me out, jeez!

BUT today the pain has cleared...so far!
So I begin again!

New artwork coming next week...I PROMISE!!!

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Disappearing Act...Again!

Hi Everyone,

Wow!

I've managed to disappear unexpectedly from my blog again.  Sorry about that.

A two week long head pain marathon ran into my honey getting really sick and ending up in hospital

because he could barely breathe for his lungs & airways had gotten so congested...it was scary!

And that ordeal streamed right along into more head pain filled days for me

and then naturally my turn to get abit of a flu...

But all is getting better now, so I'll be showing you some new artwork very soon.

I'd like to say later today or tomorrow but for once I won't promise since my headaches and

migraines are in high gear these last few weeks and I've been able to get less done than

normal or even keep to a plan or schedule of any sort.

BUT...

my Jonathan is okay now and safe and sound at home...

The first words out of his mouth when I was finally able to see him a few hours later in the triage room was "Oh there you are, I missed you and I miss my rabbits, I want to go home I need to see them" awww.

So even though I am writing this with a still pounding head

and I am pretty sure it'll likely be sore again tomorrow!

(I head to a neurologist very soon...slightly nervous!)

my honey is back home and on his way to healthy again, so all is right in my world

...and I have no complaints.

And I am just really excited about showing you all some new work,

I've been working on so many things.

So do hop in for a visit again really soon so you can see all the new goodies, okay?

XO Mandy