Dislocation and Drawing

Okay so I know I was super excited to show you my newest illustration a couple weeks ago

but than I disappeared on you all

but that was because this happened...

 

 

I dislocated my right knee...

It was one of the worst pains I've ever felt.

My left knee has went on me a few times in my life because I have Osgood Schlatters disease

in that knee but my right knee has always been good and strong

(always one of the only joints on my body that didn't ache or give me trouble!).

This dislocation was by far the worst, I don't know why...and now according to the er doc I can

expect it to happen again because all of the tendons will now be stretched.

 

It happened almost two weeks ago...

I was bed ridden for the first few days.

Than I could hobble a tiny bit around the house with the help of my hon bun.

(let me tell you, a house with as many gates & bunny boards as we have is no picnic with an injury!)

I know in my last post I was wishing for a bit of stillness...

but not this much f'in stillness!!!

I was told that it would have been better and actually less painful

if I had actually broken my bone!!! that bone heals more easily than all of the

stretched tendons and torn tissue that happens with a dislocation! UGH.

 

I had just been diagnosed with tendonitis in my right shoulder

and just that week was starting physio because it's been painful for 2 years and

I've been having a hard time to lift any thing higher than my shoulder!

Talk about feeling like your body is betraying you, jeepers!

I've honestly been having a really hard time...

it's been so painful and after almost two weeks I still can't bend my knee at all...

And because my knee is so messed up, I am moving in ways not normal to my body

so all sorts of other parts of my body have started to ache and hurt and cramp up...not fun!

 

 

So I've been trying to occupy myself with art work from couches & bed

but my heart hasn't been in it...

I think I am feeling sorry for myself and my artwork is usually very positive and uplifting.

Anyhow...

The swelling finally went down enough a few days ago so I could be fitted for a brace with hinges

which I have to wear for the next 6 to 8 weeks...

any kayaking or biking is a no go...I feel like I ruined our beautiful summer.

 

At least with the new brace I am a bit more mobile and can hobble around on my own

for little bits of time here and there and with it I can get out into the yard with my babies

which has been picking up my spirits a smidge.

 

 

What has had me wanting to scream is that on top of this knee injury,

I had a bad headache that lasted over 2 weeks...

it was just relentless and had me wanting to gouge my eyes out!

It has been feeling so unfair...

to have this awful painful injury on top of other pain...

I've been pissed off and angry at my own body.

So this is where I am....

coping best as I can...

at my wits end at least two or three times each day!...

crying...

swearing...

pissed off...

sorely missing my fur babies and being able to hang out on the floor with them all.

BUT

I am so beyond grateful for my ever so so insanely patience and sweet and doting honey...

being near him is my best medicine...

and now hopefully I am back to a normal blogging schedule! I hope!!