Missing You

I've been missing my best friend...

I know life goes on and all that jazz...

but a large part of mine hasn't, not yet anyhow...

I miss my bed snuggle time with her & our sharing snack time before bed...I miss her sweet face...

I miss her joyful energetic bouncy clumsy energy filling the house.

Every time I see her little box of ashes on the mantel

I want to scream and shout and stomp because it still feels unreal and unfair.

Everytime I look at Yuuji, I feel sad because I know he's lonely with missing her too

and he just isn't his usual self without his girl, whom he loved so so much.

 But I find a little solace in honoring her beautiful spirit through my art

and I am so glad that the very first image of my Artful Blogging feature

was indeed an ink portrait that I did of Teela.

It feels strange that the issue came out just a week before she left us.

I know time heals...But this one might take my whole lifetime.

If your up there bouncing about the stars...we're doing okay without you but we'd be better with you.

And we're missing you every single minute of every single day baby girl.

Still Thinking of Hazel...

It's not that I feel like I have to in anyway prove that Hazel is heavy on my mind...I don't need to tell everyone that our hearts still ache for her to be back with us...I don't have to go on about how wonderful, how silly, how funny, she was...and it is somewhat difficult to post these pictures, as I know it will be hard for Jonathan to see them when he next pops into my blog for a visit (sorry baby)...but I just loved these pictures we took just a couple days before Haz left us...I prepared them for posting before she left us and it seems like a shame not to share them as I planned and not to share her beauty even though she's gone...so here we go...it was a successful bonding season of the 3 minds...

I had to share these...so thanks for popping in and sharing them with me...I remain authentic with my posting and honest to my heart so if Hazel is what I am thinking about today that Hazel is what I will post about...Miss you Haz XXOO.

P.S. Join me soon again for a new papercut.

Our Hazel Has Left Us

It is very difficult to do this post but I must in memory of one of the best little rabbits that ever hopped on this earth...shockingly and completely unexpectedly our sweet and funny little 'Pud', our most wonderful Hazzy...suddenly died this past Monday night. We don't know what happened, she was having a perfect day (it never took much to make this little one happy), she spent 5 or 6 hours in the yard having a ball, she'd run up to me and touch her sweet little nose to my hand, she was sprawling out in the sun, happy as pie than later that night whiles watching a movie Jon and I were admiring how beautiful our sweet puddy pie was and I went in the room to give her hugs and kisses and a treat and she was looking just fine...happy and joyful as our little girl always was and an hour later she went into some kind of seizure or had a stroke and she died in our arms in a matter of minutes. We miss her so much. She added something to this home that none of the others have, she was so bright and special and loved and loved us so so well...

Hazel leaves behind her sister Jinny...and Jaks who was just getting to know her...I am still in shock that she is suddenly gone, I am angry and feel empty but at the same time I still feel her wonderful joyful spirit around me...there is no question that we were beyond lucky to have found her and have her part of our warren. She will be missed every single day.

I will not be posting for awhile. I don't know how long...but today, this week, I just feel like I have nothing to give...I am spending every second I can with Jin, she's never been alone, she always always had Haz by her side...now we're all very lost without her.

...Go to Beanie, Gimmley, Thodan, Hobbs, and Noodle sweet girl...they will keep you good company intil we see you again someday.