Dove Love

I am so in love with the doves...

  

and clearly they are so in love with each other.

44th

Happy Happy Birthday to the love of my life...to my everything...to my bunny daddy supreme...

I know it's been a hell of a year...I got you...you got me...forever x 2 to infinity.  Happy 44th my love.

Happy 26th Babe

He's my everything...my absolute everything...all I want and all I need.

We are anxious to see the back end of 2019 honestly for it's been a very hard year for us health wise.

We are trying to concentrate on the good stuff...in October we celebrated our 26th Anniversary.

To be perfectly honest, 26 million years with this amazing human being wouldn't be enough for me.

Fizzy Is Doing Great

Barnaby Fizz went from a shaking little malnourished neglected leaf to a cuddle bug supreme...

He's doing great & is so much fun to have around.  I am completely obsessed & in love with him.

Brrrrr, Cozy & Lucky

Brrrrrrr....it sure is nasty out there today.  We're expecting over a foot of snow

and that's just after a week of very slippery and icy conditions....YUCK.

But it makes the house and home so so much cozier & delightful & embracing, don't you think?

Those of us who are so very lucky enough to be able to get and stay inside that is!

Flynn's Carrot Theory

Flynns thinks he has cracked the world's problem to happiness, he thinks it's pretty simple...

A safe warm home where you can be yourself & most importantly of all a giant carrot for everyone!

Suffering With Sweetness

Leisel, otherwise known as our marshmallow wrapped in a razor blade! seems to be my sentient.

Teela, my beloved departed used to be my ever trusty watcher,

before her it was our lovely Ella-Luna who took on the job

....always seems to be a female bun that's my watcher.

When I am laying in the bed Leisel comes and checks on me almost hourly,

sometimes she waits and watches me from the end of the bed...

If I don't move for awhile she keeps nudging me until I do move and say "I am okay baby".

It's really really very very touching and sweet, especially coming from our broken Leisel,

even when my head is feeling like it's going to split open, the utter sweetness of it isn't lost on me.

On these days another sweet lovely thing are lovely large sweet soy lattes with a big hit of

coconut whipping cream! (I know I know 'the sugar' but my sugar intake is otherwise low).

Sometimes the hit of strong caffeine with a dose of codeine helps me out a bit pain wise so I see it

as medicinal in a way ha ha! But they do truly feel needed, well deserved & certainly appreciated too!

Happy New Year

From me and my family to you and yours...
Happy Happy New Year

I hope you will all join me for another beautiful year
of sharing, inspiring & aspiring XOXO

A Tad Sporadic!

Hey ya guys...sorry I don't mean to be blogging so sporadically but I am going to give

myself a pass since in about 10 years of blogging it's really the first time I've ever done so!

I am not going to give any excuses because I have none other than I am spending oodles of time with the precious awesome buns, my hon, tending to my body & forging new lovely art & friendships XO

My Big Boy On Blue

My Big Boy Henrie...

I am so glad I get to be his Mama.

Tenacious Times

I don't think we have much more time with our Jelly-Bean Jaks...

But he's still eating and pooping and moving around so we're still going to help him keep going.

I am spending alot of time at home and in my upper studio which I share with him.
He's happiest when I am in the studio with him working away with our music playing
(and lavender and peppermint oil misting away from our diffuser...he likes essential oil diffusers)

I've been kinda feeling like my heart is going to burst...
ugh...this part is hard...
What is harder?  Saying goodbye slowly or not having a chance to say goodbye??
I don't know but I do know one thing, this little soul is as tenacious and tough as they come

and I am just grateful that he's seeing his 3rd Spring now since being diagnosed

with congestive heart failure...his tenacity in spirit & body inspires me to better deal with my illness.

Meet Higgins

Everyone we want you to meet somebun very special
our brand new shelter baby

Higgins

(known at the Toronto Humane Society as Buttons)

He was this very troubled little city bun in desperate need of a home

(surrendered as a stray, which might have been a cover story based on his nasty pointy teeth!)

The shelter knew he was very troubled...

he was biting & peeing on all of the volunteers & caregivers

(the poor little guy was put on bite quarantine with the city officials FIVE times!)

He was at the shelter for many many long months & his stay was looking endless

because he wasn't going to be released to just any home, let alone one with kids,

he needed a super experienced family loaded with skills, steely nerves & thick skin, ha ha!

He needed behavioral issue/special need adopters &

unfortunately none of the shelters usual group were able to take him on...

so when the shelter reached out for help far & wide on his behalf we were contacted,

we said no at first...

but a week later we were still thinking about him, so we asked more questions & for pictures...

than we talked about it in depth & the more we talked the more it felt right.

My honey reminded me that one way to fight evil in this world is to hold our heads up high

and to keep doing good ourselves, to keep helping animals whenever we can...

Sure it's nerve-racking & there are many parts of behavioral issue/special need adoption animals

that are not fun and are for sure exhausting BUT we somehow are the island of misfit buns

and here was a little guy who wasn't fitting in anywhere else....

So we made the decision, got super excited, prepped a whole big area for him to Misa's dismay

and than we made the 9+ hour drive to our favorite shelter and scooped him up...

He's 3 year old, a dutch mix dwarf with a tiny piece of his poor little nubbin nose missing.

He needs some serious trust work done & potty habits instilled & Miss Misa is not too happy

at all to have him in part of her rooms even though he seems quite interested in her.

We are taking turns sleeping with him & Misa, refereeing at the moment more than sleeping!

(we admit we are pooped and some monster migraines sure are not making this bit easier!)

He's going to be a handful, but everything always settles beautifully over time...he'll be just fine.

he's a handful but now he's our handful and we love the wee blue-eyed soul already.

(follow Higgins on our new Instagram bunny stream @LeporidaeLovely)

Just Around The Corner

Psssstttt...A little soul is waiting to change your life

at a shelter just around the corner nearest you!!!  XOXO.

Renaissance Babe

Happy Happy Birthday my gorgeous, amazing, renaissance babe...you deserve the whole world...

But I know you'll just be happy with some vegan cheesecake! The buns & I love you so so much XO

Back In Summer

I am so behind on summer photos....

This was just some hiking in one of our favorite places this summer.

Beautiful and Awful

Spring, you were beautiful and awful.
Summer you were beautiful and awful!

Fall you've been beautiful and awful too...
Winter I hope your kinder because your coming very soon and I honestly can't wait you!

 My sore heart and sore body are craving some cozy hibernation time with my family,
time that I hope will heal some of our bumps and bruises (before more hit!!).
I hope it's going to do the same for you if your needed it too, all my fellow tender hearted ones
XOXO

24 Years

24 years ago today I went on my first date with this amazing human being...
We were lucky to have found one another young.

Every single day I count my lucky stars that he is mine & that I am his.
He is my favorite and best thing in this world.

Cruelty-Free Makeover Time

My niece loves make-up...so as long as she agreed to only use my own cruelty-free products,

we were game, ha ha....

It was such a good laugh.

And can I just state for the record that this kid has the best uncle in the whole world!

RIP Elsie Biggens

Our beautiful Elsie girl died in my arms on August the 5th.

We thought we were just going in for another check up on her breathing problems

but that we would be bringing her back home.

Everything happened so quickly...we brought her in because she stopped eating

all together just that morning and she just would not at all let us give her critical care.

We were just there at the doctors, she was quite active, she started to nudge the doctor

than suddenly she jumped up into my arms, which is very unlike her, and from there it all went horribly wrong.  Her breathing got super bad, so we brought her into the operating room to hold oxygen to her face, Henrie was with us all by her side, we than tried to so an x-ray but her breathing got worse and the 2nd time we put her back on oxygen it just became compeltely clear that she wasn't going to get better, she was struggling to breathe and I decided it was time to help her pass

but the doctor didn't even have time to get the injection,  I was holding her, she was calm but

clearly struggling for breathe, I kissed her, told her it was okay to let go that we would take care of her boy, that she was so strong and so good and that we loved her so so much and than she was gone.

The doctor thinks it was after all as the original diagnosis was, a huge tumor growing inside her chest wall surrounding her heart and airway because after being on meds for two months,

he feels that punemoia would have gotten better not worse and the way she was acting at the end

indicated the story we were were more scared of, cancer.

It's our 3rd loss in a year and a half, it's been feeling like I just can't do it anymore.

I'll forever miss holding her hand...we always held hands, my Elsie girl and I.

On the very first day we brought her home and I realized she liked having her front paw held,

I would sing her that song "I just want to hold your hand, Elsie...I want to hold your hand"
and could tell and feel that she loved it...it was our special thing.

I am so glad I got to be her mommy and I promise her that we'll take stellar care of her Henrie.

She was pure perfect love and we are better happier people for having known and cared for her.

She will always be part of my happy heart and joyful spirit, I'll carry her beauty in me forever.

Sunsets & Smiles

It's been a rollercoaster 4+ months...

My niece will probably kill me for posting this photos but I just can't help it, I love them...
They are just so representative our of our time together these past weeks...

Just us hanging out, dealing with stressful things, soaking in sunsets,
goofing around and making each other smile...I am still 110% sure I made the right choice in
never having kids but that doesn't mean that I don't love this kid to the moon and back XOXO.